ChainedExistence
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Not that I was overly enamoured of the tone of the OP....but I did have to stop to remind myself of how things "used to be" for me, and how I might have sounded to other people. There was a time when I didn't have a Master to brag about...and sometimes it seemed everyone was paired up but me. It was hard to listen to people talk about their perfect weekend, their beautiful marks, their new toy, when I knew I couldn't have any of that. Jealous? You Bet! I wanted so badly what other people had. I'm sure I did my share of whining and feeling sorry for myself. That period of " searching" can be so draining emotionally. Neediness often makes people behave in a way that might not show them in their best light. It's hard to be lighthearted and fun when you're so frustrated. I'd compare it in a way to the deameanor of someone who is ill or in pain- they aren't always the most pleasant of folks to be around. Of course, how you view your situation makes a big difference in your success in handling pain, disappointment, or even the search for a perfect partner. I finally figured that I was just going to quit " trying" so hard and just enjoy the people I'd met. To my surprise, when I just relaxed and let down my guard, Master was there! So, If I brag a little..it's because I paid my dues, so to speak, and because Master is perfect ( at least for me!)..I hope the OP finds what they are looking for, but if not, they might want to follow some of the wonderful advice others here have already made. Let yourself be known for simply who you are and maybe the perfect person will fall right over your lap!
< Message edited by ChainedExistence -- 3/28/2006 2:38:46 PM >
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