maggieg
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Ok were do I begin here.......never done this before! Ok I do believe I am a very strong, yet submissive woman. I have only had one "Master" I do hate titles! It was all very complex, and all came crashing down. This part of my problem I think, well that is why I am about to ask for advice. I find myself yet again at the begining of a similar sistuation. I saw a profile and face I rather liked so I wrote, he wrote back. We chatted and text for a few days, I wanted to meet to see if I was right about the chemistry. He hesitated as he does not like to rush things, fair enough but we did anyway. He pulled up next to me.......I thought it was my first "Master" that on it's own blew my mind to bits. I composed myself, got out of my car. We went in the hotel for a drink, I was like bambi caught in the headlights. He knew where I was and what I was feeling, I could hardly breath. You see reading this back I think.......hello this does not happen in the real world....yet I know it does! Ok so we go to the car, he gets in. My heart is pounding, he kisses me.......................jesus! The mental became physical, it blew me away. He would not touch me, it was like torture! I am very sexual very very very by the way. I accepted this. He never needed to! We chatted, kissed I wont go into explicit detail, but subzone came at me in bounds. I was useless, and helpless......tears ran out of my eyes. Things happened that day I could not explain. We went our seperate ways, to be in touch. It all started going wrong, in my head anyway. Apart from the obvious thing of still being in a really heightend state, I left not really understanding where I stood. This all happened last week, short time ago I know. Here is what happened since....... The texts have been a lot fewer, ok he works no worries just let me know. Then when I say this he says.......there is no us! nothing has started! hello........didn't it? that is the first question to you all???? Had I begun a journey with this man? who tells me how lovely, smart everything I am! I log on to the net he is there, does not say hello! I mean contact between us was a lot, now 24 hours without any contact. I told him last night, after chatting with a friend who is Dom I could not carry this on. I feel like he is playing games, his reply to me........ what have I done wrong? all we are doing is communicating!!!!! He says he won't see me again for at least 6 weeks, and will be in touch when he gets back. I have no idea what is going on other than I don't need another friend, I want a "Master" I get lots of attention off men, vanilla and otherwise. Being very sensual and sexual it is hard to resist, but try to. I had started a journey in my mind, then hit a brick wall! Help am I always going to be this impatient, unsure???? He says I am insecure, maybe I am. He says he is busy and not on msn its on in the background, yet he had logged on to cm. Oh maybe it's just me! Help????
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