WinsomeDefiance -> RE: the beauty of brattiness and sarcasm (6/22/2010 7:07:24 AM)
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When I first started attending private play parties, there were a couple S.A.M.'s (Smart Ass Masochists) in our group. Being rather shy and reserved, I'd watch how they behaved, kind of shocked and a little annoyed. The Dominants in attendance seemed to come alive when the S.A.M.'s were around, and at the time I just didn't understand what they saw in those girls. How could they endorse and encourage such bad and bratty behavior? Part of me was disgusted with them. But, part of me was envious too. I wanted to be that spontaneous and playful, I just didn't know how to at that time. And yes, part of me wanted to bask in the attention I saw these annoying little twits getting. I found that spontaneous, playfull side of myself in time. I like to think it is typically tempered with a genuine kindness and courtesy of others, so I never really see myself as bratty. However, if someone were to catch me on a rare hyper-playful day, they might have a different opinion of me than I have of myself. I hope not. Actual brats appear, in my estimation, to be somewhat focused on themselves, and getting what they want - in whatever way works to that end. I generally find this ego-centric behavior to be negative and try not to emulate it. I don't equate bratty/spoiled behavior, with what I see in most submissives actions. I know they call themselves brats, but I see playful and spontaneous. Not ego-centric, me me me, give me what I want, behavior. Unless, of course, I DO see that. then I just call it like I see it. Still, when I found I could just enjoy myself and not take it all so personally or seriously, I was glad to find that playful and spontaneous side of myself. It is one reason I tend to prefer the more casual and less protocol dominants. My inner child is still, even now, a bit fragile. When in a sintuation where I'm faced with someone who is strict, I revert back to my shy and reserved self, and well, I don't really enjoy that person as much as I enjoy the more playful side of myself. Anyway, that's my take on the whole brat, not-the-brat thing. As for sarcasm. I live in Michigan, where sarcasm is pretty much an artform. It was sink or swim, baby, and let me just say: I have a very healthy self-preservation instinct. WinD
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