SexyBossyBBW
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Joined: 2/25/2010 Status: offline
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I began my search into where I belong (why I felt suffocated in "normal" relationships, who I am, and why guys were randomly asking to be my slave on my very vanilla yahoo chats), at alt dot com. I was immediately freaked out, and had to back off, rethink things, because I certainly wasn't interested in being common fresh meat, who played a role. Than I don't recall how I found collarme, but it immediately made me think "relationship goal." I began reading the forums, was intimidated, gathered my courage, and began posting. I got my arse kicked, ridiculed, frustrated, but I learned a hell of a lot here, and for all the "what I considered abusive gangish behavior I noticed," I still felt it was more beneficial to me, than any other site. Sometimes, life gets busy, the cliques annoy me, I cannot handle the intensity, and high school drama here, I take off. I have never divorced collarme, because it's where I found my footing, and real people, who held my hand, when I was too scared to go anywhere. I'm not going to encourage you to stay, if things on these boards get under your skin, and you are unable to disconnect, and have a support system outside of here; but if you do have a support system, and can shut off the computer at those times this becomes personal, you may learn a lot, and get comfortable with this site in time. Good luck, M
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"..touching was and still is and always will be the True Revolution" Nikki Giovanni "Only when there are many people who are pools of peace, silence, understanding, will war disappear." -Osho
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