porcelaine
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ORIGINAL: MarcEsadrian Having been on both sides of the "slash", so to speak, I don't believe that's what's going on. Are you eliminating all possibilities with that remark? Or lending the suggestion that in your experience "this" is the probable answer, yet acknowledging the possibility (and probability if you will) that exceptions do exist that you've not encountered? quote:
That certainly stands to reason, but exploring just how far that logic extends is always worth a second look. Would you resolve toward only looking through your Master's eyes when he abjectly humiliates you, say, in front of your relatives during a cozy family dinner at your Mother's house? Or spreads images of your mouth made urinal around to all your co-workers/clients? Probably not. Of course those examples are a little extreme, but they are offered to test the "if he thinks it's great, end of discussion" idea where this subject is concerned, and secondly to demonstrate that desire of humiliation in the submissive party, even in it's widest sense, is finite. I'm definitely the wrong example for this discussion. You're asking me to make a choice that I've already decided upon long before the incidents unfolded. And with all due respect, it feels rather odd to argue this position. As for the ramifications of that decision... The familial example is of no consequence. What that suggests is the realities of my position and their long standing policy of non involvement. Add to this their awareness of my surrendered state, the revelation of compromising imagery that fell into my mother's hands, a distaste for confrontation in social situations, and an unflinching defense of my person irregardless if he's made me look foolish in their eyes. The act will be seen as a manifestation of his character and not a defect of my own. If communication was not permitted after its occurrence I'd receive a check or electronic deposit as a sympathetic gesture. And the matter would be put to rest. I have no career threat to concern myself with. I jumped ship sometime ago. If we extended the idea to friends their response would range from, "ooh that's hot" to "you're such a slut" and nothing further. It's probable that they'd get off since we have the same fetishes for the most part. Please keep in mind, I have intentionally removed impediments that would prevent me from living my life in the manner indicated. My risk factor is far less than most and I'm not oblivious to that. It reflects my priority and commitment to living my truth as opposed to fostering a fantasy in my head. My desire to live as property can be readily undertaken. And in all fairness, you cannot test these things from afar. We'll engage in a circular argument concerning the respective points made. But in the end you cannot know unless you're in the position to implement the situations suggested. At best we're debating a theoretical possibility who's outcome would remain a mystery. What I found most troubling regarding the examples presented was not its content, but the suggestion that his directive could not be digested in the manner stated. You present the remark with a slight twinge of disbelief. While I don't deny it may not hold true for all, there are those with an intrinsic need to live according to the principles mentioned. It is not a piece of fanciful lingo for me. I aspire to edify that in its entirety. quote:
Resiliency in surviving humiliation as a slave, however, is another matter, though I wouldn't say that's the same as being "into it". I'm very resilient, but no longer have to lean upon my strength for sustenance. That is why my Keeper exists. The burden is not mine to shoulder nor to repair. I'm required to do my job, not his. I am certain that if he seeks to decimate he has the capacity and willingness to reconstruct my frame. Should he elect to abandon the task or the project overall, I'm in possession of the resources required for its completion. One would hope it would never come to that, but just in case... Namaste, ~porcelaine
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