NibbyJibby
Posts: 85
Joined: 7/9/2006 Status: offline
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I few years ago i was not so open with my experiences, but with time and exposure have become confident and comfortable with my submission and interests. A number of years ago in Toronto attending the world's largest single day fetish event, sponsored by Northbound Leather at 'The Docks, i came out of the shadows. With over 2,000 people in attendance, interacting and dressed appropriately it had effect on me... heck perhaps i'm normal, and perchance not, not worry as many others are! :-) With the financial aspect it came about in younger years. My first sessions were with professional Dommes. As such to tribute has never been a issue to me. My logic was if a total stranger is prepared to spend time with me, invest money and time into Her profession to create so i can find fulfilment for a deep craving... and to do so with safety, expertise and allow so i can trust, feel secure and be with discretion. Certainly all that has a value. I saw it as no different than to compensate a accountant or therapist... only difference being much more fulfilling and a heck of a lot more fun. I think with many subs and slaves professing willingness to pay, it is more fantasy than reality. Most do not follow through and thus create so there is much doubt and suspicion when one does profess such. Also it is stressful and emotional as one ventures deeper because the commitment increases, thus level of trust must do likewise. For example how many submissives/slaves are willing to forward their drivers licence and personal information. Take it a step further and can a level of trust and interaction be reached where bank accounts, credit cards, etc. are relinquished. Theses are not easy things, nor to be taken lightly. Money is power and money is a necessity. To talk the talk is easy but for many to actually part with it, giving it up is too difficult a walking of the walk. What You did was perfect... to sort the wheat from the chaff, to create opportunity for one to put their money where their mouth is! Amazon is a perfect option because it allows a price range for every budget. The act of giving is more representative than cost of an item. To talk the talk and then fall short via opportunity with Amazon is pathetic. No wonder there is such doubt and discord regarding financial slaves. I like that although not being Your interest You regardless ventured forth and created a privileged opportunity. Although another broken promise and no espresso, at least You got rid of him :-)
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