Whiplashsmile4
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Today, I made up my mind to take the Higher Ground in the middle of an extremely fucked up situation. I'm soon going to "Out myself" or expose myself for being into BDSM in the process of contacting an "Abuse hotline" and/or dealing with legal authorities. My own morals and code of conduct when it comes to this lifestyle is one which is based upon consent. I find was humanly impossible for me to use and reduce another human being to TEARS (intense Real Tears) without them knowing that was what the Main Goal or objective was in mind. I had first encountered this amazing Girl though a CL listings, we talked for many hours. Got a good sense of limits and whatnot. We were going to hook up last Sunday. Things fell apart. I had responded to another CL listing (similar in nature) on Monday. I had asked her if it was a AD for her, just to make certain before responding to it. On Monday I responded to it. Thinking at the very least another Play Date partner to hook up with. However the more and more interaction it became crystal clear that it was for the same girl. Only being arranged by a third party. As it turned out, she had volunteered to take on a debt of some girl that had a drug addiction debt. This dude had paid off the debt and was expecting sexual use and favors in exchange. My Girl, The one I had been originally talking with and getting to know for awhile. It seems had volunteered to take on this debt in place of her. So for the next 32 email exchanges I played a long, making certain to make the sales pitch that I was the man for the job!! Down to reducing this Bitch down to tears (which was the dealbreaker). Anyways, Come Wed, I set off down the road... I showed up... and started to engaged in this fucked up rape scene. I had blind folded her. Keep in mind that this girl has a rape fantasy which I need about, and we talked about a head of time. Still she was a stiff as a fucking mannequin. I myself could not get my Dick up to save my life.. even though I tried. I finally had enough of the expectations which these two other guys placed in the scene!! I remember saying "Fuck this, Fuck those guys, Fuck what the Hell they want!".... This is when I played her against the wall, hands and legs spread wide.. went down stairs and snagged a beer!! I knew she would appreciate a sip.. so i went back up.. pressed the neck of the bottle to her lips.. so she could have a sip. I had snagged the blind fold and it came down. I quickly spun here around.. my hands on each side of her face...her eyes looked like a deer in the headlights. And I blurted out something along the lines of "Trust, Please Trust me Girl... I really really Like you, Just please Trust me!!" Her eyes light up and happy to see that It was me there, and not somebody else. She was so relieved.. She totally relaxed and we spend the rest of the night tonight talking and having fun. I had cut those strings which were attached. I was supposed to take pictures and so many other things. A lot of intense I was supposed to have done to her. I let her know about the conditions of how I was supposed to deeply hurt her and BREAK her DOWN INTO INTENSE TEARS... which she was shocked about. Anyways, we ended up playing and it was far far way better than acting out a Rape Scene (or rather a stage planned Real Rape). It's a good thing here and I had had that long 6 hour+ phone conversation the week before. seriously. I told her that I was glad it was me and not some truly sadistic fuck. Even though I had to pass myself off a bit of a sadistic fuck in the screening process to get to her. Hell, It was an amazing night. I remember in the early morning hours when I started playing with rope bondage with her. Had her ankles wrapped and ties and her thighs wrapped and tied... and stood her up on the floor. She was happy.. she started to use her toes of her feet to shuffle along. Remined me of the "Happy feet" movie. Kind of waddling a long.. and I was okay smart ass.. don't make me get out the shoe laces and go for toe bondage on you. We embraced... with a great big hug and deep passionate kiss. Truly Priceless moment. I sincerely really really like this girl. Now here's were the problems start to occur.. we both started to question if I had been in on a setup job or if she had been in on a setup job. I really started to wonder if these other guys from the other CL listing were real or not. That perhaps this was some elaborate scheme setup for her to live out a an intense rape scene. Things just did not add up, because this debt was a $4,000 debt. The dude collecting on the Debt,, I honestly did not see what he was getting out of it. What they guys wanted me to do.. matched up to what she was wanting to do and explore. with the exception of having her limited pushed so damn hard and that was TO USE her so BAD that she was to have a BREAK DOWN and TURN into a MESS of TEARS and even be Extremely Scared. If a truely sadistic Fuck been there instead of me, it all would have happened. She was in shock and terrorized at the Conditions which were place on me to do to her. Anyways, I made up a story to feed these too fucks about how Extremely used I used here that night. To help get her out of this debt. She wanted to see me again. However many things simply were not adding up. I was actually wondering if this Girl was behind the staged rape scene and I these two guys never existed. I tried to get them to call me voice afterwards, to no avail. I really was not very trusting of shit after wards. Aniexty started to set in, it grew. Even thoughts of these fuckers turning around and doing more to her, to break her down into a fucking mess. (Rape the real deal). I finally got a Message back from one of them, when trying to get them to call me. "What make you think this is all we got (or are going to get) out of it?" This implied that there was more to come.... One of these dude's operates a prostitution escort service, and I know would love to turn her into One of his girls. She had refused to do so.. This is another reason why I intentionally did not take pictures to share with his fucking ass. So there was no blackmail material. So, now... It's time for me to shut this whole game down on ice. I'm getting ready to make phone calls soon. I'm going to out myself. Share all the email correspondence and whatnot. Get this girl out what from whatever mess she's into, and take the matter of worrying about it from my own hands. She is a very sweet girl, I even have her son a piggy back ride in the morning when he came from from the baby sitter. I've not deal well this the levels of Anxiety for the last few days, between worrying and wondering about the truth. I actually had to take some tranquilizers to settle my ass down. Whenever, I had found myself in situations like this.. I have always stepped up to the plate and Went for Doing the right thing. I think I'm getting ready to do the right there here. It's something I know I can humanly live with. Funny. I remember tiring her up in the morning showing her all he different positions. Then her saying this just not make it easy for sexually use... then the light Bulb going off inside her head. with her a questioning comments "So Bondage is really not about Sex"... I said "Exactly, but it can be"... There was also a found moment, after getting out of the shower together.. where I was toweling her down. She was saying how great it was and nobody done that since we was a kid. I openly admitted it was part of the Daddy dom part of me. Sooooooooooo.. anyways... there's more going at this very moment. I'm not certain who to contact, the Rape abuse hotline, or whatever... or whoever to spill all this mess out to. I collected all my email correspondence in a folder. Been getting prepared. I'm pretty much resolved to Outting myself to who, Outing me being into BDSM and crazy kinky stuff. I'm washing myself of this whole situation, reporting it and letting the trained professionals come in and deal with it. It's hard to me to not do this... and have it eating at my soul and conscious if something truly bad or true harm comes to this girl. I plan on making this move in the next 48 hours. I would appreciate... anybody's thoughts and opinions on this matter. Even including how much of a dumbass I am... but I'm hard pressed here with my own conscious in Doing the right thing. I'm totally open to any questions. I'm not wishing to get into any fights about this stuff either. I'm also on tranquilizers at the moment, so I'm not so emotionally fucked up. Think I can engage in civil exchanges on this thread. This whole experience is rather surreal and I never been in it before. I really really Love you guys to death. This is a bit of a serious situation... just please please I ask for some seriously consideration in how you guys responded. I greatly appreciate it.
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Жизнь ума ебет. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nUzJI4Palq0
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