Bearlee
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Joined: 10/25/2004 From: South Central CO Status: offline
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ORIGINAL: Caretakr Yes and can post an old Gihbrahn quote the spoke to my soul, of why that is. Your pain is the breaking of the shell that encloses your understanding. Even as the stone of the fruit must break, that its heart may stand in the sun, so must you know pain. … The author is Kahlil Gibran and the quote is from his wonderful book The Prophet. It’s an absolutely beautiful book; perhaps a ‘must have’ for every library! Thank you so much, Caretakr. quote:
ORIGINAL: ChainedExistence At times I can feel driven but unfocused, excitable, quick to emotional outbursts, overly chatty, I stop sleeping well, I start to feel more augumentative and take things more personally, little issues seem to take on huge importance. When Master decides to whip me, I become quiet and focused. Everything centers on the moment at hand. Whether I laugh, or cry, space or not, there comes an internal shift in how I react. Of course, it renews my bond with Master, and makes me feel very sensual and loving. There are other benefits I notice later: I accomplish things more readily, I am calmer, more even-tempered. I am more logical, more the peacekeeper, and able to look at little things as the little things they are. My parents used to joke that sometimes a kid just needed a spanking for no reason..and maybe there's something to that. It seems to purge all the negativity out of me. I feel softer, more feminine, more submissive....sigh....makes me wish for it all the more intensely. ChainedExistence… thank you so much for your post! It is just like that for me, too; and I most definitely become more focused…which of course benefits the rest of my daily life. LMBO…erin, it IS very much like a defragging, isn’t it? LOL In spite of this…I am not a pain-slut (as I fondly call them). While I will stand willingly until I am literally beaten bloody, it is not the pain, but the submission that sends me. Padriag put it eloquently with his post the other day on “Service with Substance”: quote:
ORIGINAL: Padriag I've never considered myself a sadist, though I can be very sadistic at times. But its not their pain I get off on. Its that a submissive is willing to suffer for me to please me, for my pleasure, that does it for me. Because again that is a very strong message of submission. Yes, it's submission that sends me...more so than does the pain. I hope that makes sense. Like pita said "Those are the feelings that make me crave the hurt." beverly
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