duckssinthewind
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forgive me if i get back to what Stanton said, this subject keeps broadening for me: i have known both Sadistic and NonSadistic Masters who could lay on stripes, and the former were cooler and more methodical mostly. what sets the Sadistic Master apart seems to be an equal and opposite hunger, that complements mine. the need in Them is very compelling. however, Loving Sadist creates a new wrinkle: on one hand He feels the hunger more deeply, knowing that i need Him to hurt me, and expresses His love for me in more extremes of His own need. on the other hand it is perhaps harder for Him to indulge. it really is concern for Himself that tempers expression, because Sadism and Honor battle in Him all the time. for me He bears a weight of concern that i think divides Him when i am priviledged to be most centered. i give up shame and offer my dark desires to Him, which is very freeing. the balance is so delicate. "to live as a warrior, dont indulge in crappy little thoughts"
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