Mavis
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susan, and, well, anyone, there are reasons to do a rape play, and i like the idea myself, but i don't have a partner who can get over John-Walton feelings enough to do it. But the idea of chemically inducing anything to enhance the scene.. i just don't think it's a good idea. IF you want to do it, you should BE in the moment, and feel everything about it, love it, hate it, remember it... alla that stuff. Otherwise, really, what purpose does it serve for you to be half-out? You've just said Yes, i'll do a scene, and only engage in it 50%. So much for your fantasy. Really it's His scene, His rape, and you're a prop. Which is a great idea if you're scening with a partner you normally serve ONLy to please HiM, but even then, the bottom usually is at least aware she is pleasing the Dominant, and is at least getting THAt enjoyment out of it. i think this would fall into that category of cool idea, bad plan. Because even in your fantasy, you are actually having this huge blank spot? Nope. your fantasy doesn't really include passing out and waking to think maybe you've been raped. The drug would add a blank spot that you don't even have in your fantasy! lol. Now, if you role-played being out, being drugged, whatever, you'd get to pretend you're half out, limp-acting, almost like necro-play, but you'd still get to experience whatever you're acting out. i know it's not "real" but it's the only way to experience it and actually, truly BE there to experience it. This might take some mind-loops to wrap around. please ponder. <grins> Another thought, it might trigger some bad feelings for you considering it's very close to that hard, hard limit of yours, no alcohol. If you ingest something that brings back feelings of being under the power of alcohol in any way, what will that do to you down the road?
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