WhiplashSmile
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Joined: 6/8/2004 Status: offline
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This may be perhaps my last post on the message boards! I've reached a great moment of taking somebody into consideration. Last night I actually Killed the Yahoo IM account I've been using to interact with people from this website. I also Nuked my account on collarme.com. For a number of reasons. For thos that have been following my posts on here. You'll know this motto of mine, give me more than One reason to do something, and It's done. Reason #1 This connects to this thread, where I want to devote me time and energy into focusing upon One, instead of many. In order to do this I needed to step out of the online game. Reason #2 Wasting of time playing the game. Everbody complains about others being game players. The truth is everybody is playing The Game of finding the right person. Yes, this is a game and there are emotional risks that can become involved. Even more so because of long distance issues involved and lack of the Real Time to go along with the online. The truth is that there are many looking for the Greener side of the fence, and people end up getting hurt in the screening process. I myself am even guilty as Hell and charged with this one. I have spent countless amount of time with emails, chatting and talking on the phone. The thing is that this all has become a bit of a waste of time for me. I'm not accusing people of wasting my time. The Game itself requires time. There are too many that point fingers at So called Time wasters! The truth is THE GAME online here is what chews up time, and this is all the price for playing this Game. Reason #3 I've become disenchanted, I honesty feel that there are many online who hold some fanasty image about BDSM in their heads. Too many people acting like they are acting out a BAD BDSM scene with other people. Reason #4 Temptation! I find that I've become somewhat hooked or addicted to the online Game. Geeesssh! I just admitted that. Perhaps somebody else will understand. As much as I try to deny it.. I was trying to hold onto a few as Backup or fallbacks in the Event things did not work out between Me and this One. What the Hell? Anyways, I simply got pissed off at myself for this behavior. I was not being fair to myself most of ALL, let alone anybody else. Reason #5 Refocus engery on things in the real time! There are goals and things I want to get done on the real time. Well.. there you go! I've decided to focus my time and engery on a few specific things.. instead of running around playing the Game here. I want to focus upon one person, instead of having my attention sliced up with many! Final comment about Under Consideration It's about like having ADD when exploring things with ONE while having other people in the background or behind the scenes! This is why "Under Consideration" is something important. Thought I'd squeeze in this one last post, since my Message Board access still exists....
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