ana85
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There never was a choice, because I was already naturally submitting in my relationships, yearning to have what I thought were "abnormal" desires met. quote:
ORIGINAL: ownedgirlie This wasn't something I recall actually choosing. I simply am this way. I remember for a long time wishing I wasn't this way, and that life would have been a hell of a lot easier if I was just "normal" (as if there is such thing). I tried choosing the other direction and denying this part of myself. I was miserable. I agree that it's not really a choice as it's your nature, but I do think that you must choose to accept who and what you are. I'm just starting to explore this side of me since I fought against my nature before. I tried to be "normal." I just wasn't happy. This is a part of who I am and fighting against my nature made me more miserable than I can explain. There was no satisfaction in pretending to be what I felt that I should be. You can pretend for your entire life to be someone you are not, you may even begin to convince yourself, but nothing will change what lies within your heart, your spirit. So... as far as I'm concerned, I would definitely go with the red
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