soultoshare
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i agree, this is a great topic! I was one of the people that didn't realize that there was even a pill to choose from, so i went through life much like you did girlie, thinking i was wierd for wanting the things i desired so badly, taking the submissive role, even when he didn't know what it was. It was only about 3 years ago that i found out that there was a whole alphabet soup of a lifestyle that i could finally embrace, and it has only been recently, VERY recently, that i was finally chosen to be somone's. There were years of frustration trying to be vanilla in relationships, and once i found out what i was, there were still times when the search left me feeling as if i was doomed to wander alone. But regrets? Nah, life is to short for regrets. Submissive is what i am at my core, and submissive is what i will be, for as someone mantioned, one must be true to oneself before you can be true to anyone else. And i am a very selfish person when it comes to my own needs......i must be happy doing whatever it is i've chosen, be it in my personal or professional life, and i can say that for the first time in a long time, i have finally reached the balance of happiness in both. m
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