simply4You -> RE: Can you serve God and your Master? (4/23/2007 8:16:03 AM)
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Greetings Every O/one: The original question "Can you server God and your Master?" After a weekend away, i was actually very surprised and glad to see this here. During an 'argument' that i had with another person, this was thrown out: "happy hunting for the perfect christian dominate male you can be proud of.." ... "hope you find all you are looking for, and something mom will be proud of" i grew up in the church. i have taught, served on youth boards, been a counselor at youth camps, served in other areas and still sing on occassion. Growing up, there was a LOT that i was 'protected' from in my parents eyes. Didn't mean they succeeded, just meant that if i wanted to know what something was about, then i had to find out for myself. While i am not as active now as i once was that is mostly due to time restraints. my children are as involved, if not more so than i was as a young child and they LOVE going and learning and growing in the word. Church, God, Christianity ... it overflows into our daily lives, into theirs and for that, i'm very thankful for how i have chosen to bring up my children. Do i struggle with Christianity in general in regards to BDSM and the lifestyle that i feel completely drawn to? Yes. Almost daily. But that doesn't mean it's a battle between Christianity and BDSM. For me, it's a struggle with appearances within them to be honest. i value the relationship i have with my parents and family and friends. They are relationships that have been rocky at the best of times, but within the past year have grown. They are not relationships that i wish to end or have broken because of personal choices i may make. Does it 'hurt' my parents and my brother that i'm not more active in the church or that i am not a 'member' of our chuch? Sure it does. my dad's been on the board for over 15 years and my brother is now too as well as the Youth director. Am i living a 'perfect' Christian life? According to my church and friends and even here ... most likely no. i'm not Perfect and i've never claimed to be. What i have to do, is take what i believe and put it into practice. Much the same as i would do in a marriage or D/s relationship. There were many many many similiarities in my marriage to D/s in the beginning. So much so that it bothered my family, but i was HAPPY and that was all that mattered. When things began changing and i was not 'happy' any longer, then they got concerned. There are things i agree with, things i don't, and other areas of my life that i just choose to put into Gods hands because for me ... that is faith and something i've been shown time and time again to be true. As long as my religious beliefs are respected, as long as the way i'm choosing to raise my children is respected, and as long as the Master i am with respects the fact that i need Him to not only ecourage me in my faith but to participate with me because it's a part of who i am ... then there is no reason why i should have to choose between one or the other. **and by 'participate' i do not mean become an active member of the local Christians only club or church** i don't necessarily need anyone to validate what i believe ... but i also don't need anyone else judging me for those beliefs. ~ simply_me
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