worthy -> RE: Masterhood (5/12/2007 9:22:12 PM)
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Please bare with me as I have never written in the forums before, though I have been on collarme since 05". I started reading all of your posts only because I was wanting to learn more about a particular friend and his new slave. Well I was learning more of her than he, it is her friendship I seek. To the point.... Master/slave..Dom/sub.. and what the "meaning" of these words truely are, does it really matter. I mean when you get right down to it, why do you need a clear cut deffinition of the meaning of the words? I call my Master..Master today, but tomarrow I may refer to him as Sir, or my Dom..maybe even by his given name. ( oh my God , I should be beaten and made to stand in the corner, chained, naked and shamed for all to see). What I am trying to convey is this... I have only been in the lifestyle for I don't know 2 or 3 years.. I mean I haven't exactly kept a calander documenting all my accomplishments and failures. Though I choose to view my failures as accomplishments. Without them I can not learn. This is an ongoing ever changing process, therefore, how my Master chooses to refer to me as, or how I choose to address him is irrellevant. The true deffinition of these terms so offten discussed is this.. Master, Dom..slave..sub, doesnt matter what you call me or how you choose to catagorize me my heart,..mind ..body and soul ultimately belongs to Him. Today I am what is typically concidered a submissive... I choose my own clothes, but not my shoes..I eat what I want..but I wait for Him...I speak my mind..but lower my head in shame if I appear disrespectful in doing so... I have a safe word... but can not use it... I can choose to obey him or not..I choose to be enslaved or not..... I choose to heed my will ..or not.. Ultimately it is my choice.. but does this make me less of a slave? maybe today it does..but tomarrow it may not.. It all depends completely on His mood..His desires. There is no line drawn in the sand.. because if there was..it still is my choice if i cross it or not. Even the slaves in History..under somes "defintion" weren't actually enslaved..They made the choice everyday to live or die..to be beaten for disobedience or not. Today I am enslaved..because today I choose to obey...tomarrow I may choose to be beaten. Today He is my Dom because he chooses to allow me to walk freely barefooted..tomarrow he is my Master because he demands 4" heels, my maids outfit, gagged, chained and cuffed, with my butt plug in place while I clean the house. So you tell me..Am I a slave or a submissive..is He my Master or my Dom? All I know is without U/us, W/we would be lost. He needs me as much as I NEED Him. He owns my heart, my mind ..my body and my soul..yet i dress the way " I CHOOSE".
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