Calandra
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ORIGINAL: zenofeller illegal it is not. worrying it is plenty. edit to add : caretakr you need to take your own freakin advice, that's probably the most disgusting thing i read on this forum. certainly the last of your stuff that i read. This reply is not intended to be spiteful or argumentative, but I take issue with your reply. I was molested routinely throughout My childhood. As a result, when I entered the lifestyle as a submissive, ageplay was a hard limit. I couldn't understand how a person could "get off" on pretending to be with someone under age. One day in scene My Master was doing what He normally did, putting Me through My paces and I was on the verge of subspace - suddenly, in this safe situation with someone I trusted with my very life, I regressed to that scared, hurt little girl who'd been molested. Now, Master hadn't done ANYTHING to encourage ageplay - it was triggered inside My own head to just let go and BE 10 years old again. Now note: no "sexual" activity was taking place at all. He took Me off the rig, carried me to the pallet where He routinely did aftercare, snuggled me against Him and covered us with a blanket. For the next two hours I whimpered, cried, shuddered and just allowed the past to wash over Me in any way it needed to. That storm had been waiting to break for 12 years and I am so thankful that Master didn't freak out at that fragile moment. He told Me that what alerted Him was that I spoke in a "little girl voice" and He knew that wasn't something I was wont to do under normal circumstances. After the waves subsided, and while I was still very much in a young frame of mind, we made love very gently right there. Why? 1.) I trusted him more at that moment than I ever had. 2.) He trusted Me more in that moment than he ever had. 3.) I had been victimized in the past, having My own sexuality used against Me - He basically rewrote those memories, transplaning soft, loving, gentle actions for mean, selfish violent ones. 4.) I was suddenly able to yield more than I ever had been able to before. As a submissive I had tried to reach that headspace that was unexpectedly upon Me - and the YIELDING, not the pretended age, inspired His Dominance at that moment. That day was healthy, clean, and wonderful... not because of the age, but because of the catharsis. I wouldn't expect YOU to understand that, since quite often your posts take harsh stands on things without looking deeper. As a Mystress, I sometimes find that male slaves will regress - not one of them has ever done it for kinky sex. Usually it happens when they reach a level of trust that they can let their walls down and allow the tender, fragile little boy come into the light of day. 90% of the time it never turns sexual, only sensual and nurturing. I am honored when someone respects and trusts Me that much.
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Lady Kathryn Athens, Ga. House of Phoenix "Nothing is ever final until you're dead - and even then I'm sure God negotiates" Anjelica Huston in Everafter
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