LadyPact
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Hello willow. I would love to know how you zeroed in on My life just now. I am currently sitting home, alone and bored on a Friday night. Why is this, you might ask? It is because My sub was, in My opinion, too tired to attend Community At Play with Me this evening. We literally turned the car around, en route, so that each of us could go to our alternative resting places, and skip the plans I had come up with. Right now, I am very torn. Yes, I honestly believe that My own sub should do what it is that pleases Me. In other words, he most certainly should have been willing to make the trip with Me, and have O/our little bit of escape. Due to other reasons, I needed to do this, but before even getting out of town, I could tell that he was not prepared in the way I feel he should be. This might be skewed because of My personal perception. Long story short, I did not feel that he wanted to serve Me, and I am now home this evening. Needless to say, I am greatly disappointed. (Does the phrase all dressed up and nowhere to go make sense to anyone?) I have yet determined on how to handle this. Part of Me says, "screw it". I refuse to sit at home, when social opportunities are available. I do not, for a moment, believe submission is an option, done when it is convenient, or taken with selective choice. Yet, I understand his position, and am empathetic to his needs. Had he told Me from the beginning that he could not live up to My expectations, it would have been different. However, he did not come to Me, in the proper way, which he knows is important. Perhaps I will have a better answer in the morning, when My mind is clear. I would hope that he knows that submission is not an option, It is My belief that either one serves Me or they don't. It is his time to chose.
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