Kalista07 -> RE: Obese has right to 2 airline seats- (11/21/2008 9:52:42 PM)
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i should be shocked.........i should be outraged.......i should be appalled.......Sadly, i'm none of those things. i fear i'm becoming immune to the dumb ass, incoherently thought out, trite ass bullshit that some people want to spread and sell as gospel truth. i had a great revelation tonight as i was reading this thread. The first one has to do with why He has lost interest in reading Collar Me, let alone why He does not necessarily like me being here. But, that's a point for another time and another place. The other realization i had was one of the ways i got to be where i'm at. i'm anorexic. Yep, i said it..Fuck all this pretencious ass bullshit, i am what i am. Recently, i was informed that i was not eligible for the gastric bypass surgery because i have a history of anorexia. Many of you, if you saw my picture, would be shocked, appalled, and argue till the cows come home that someone of my weight can not be anorexic. Well, surprise. Currently, i have a healthy relationship with food in my life. i use it to provide fuel for my body. But, guess what? i will eat McDonalds. Yep, yep i will. And guess what? i will not even feel bad about it. Do i eat it every meal of every day? uhm...Nope!! Do i 'sit on my ass, drinking soda and eating fast food?" uhm...again, nope!! Do i over-indulge in food, having great difficulty saying no to seconds, thirds, fifths, whatever? uhhh...Nope.. So, you know...Screw this shit!! i also work my ass off to try and lose weight, and at every step of the way my body fights against me. By the way, for many of you who want to stand in judgement you can jump off a cliff because after the surgeon removed my thyroid and my endocrinologist was busy packing his freaking office, i was gaining weight. It was not until i had gained 165 pounds that anyone thought to put me on some kind of replacement medication..... My unhealthy relationship with food began there. i began starving myself...buying into this bullshit myth that if i just eat less....if i just exercise more.....if i just............if i just don't.....................if i just don't................... Well, guess what. It hasn't worked yet. Should i have to buy two seats? Honestly, i don't even freaking care. What offends the hell out of me are the wild and outrageously judgmental accusations that some people will type on here regarding other people and their weight. Kali
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