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whtsubf4DOM -> RE: Jobs (7/12/2006 9:37:56 AM)
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I am a newspaper reporter, a profession in which you must put yourself and your own opinions last and everyone else before you. A good reporter does not spend a lot of time talking about himself/herself while interviewing others or during any other job-related task. The focus is all on the subjects of your stories.
It's a very rigid (daily deadline crunch, etc.) and high-profile profession. Everybody comes to know you and like you (if you're not a hardcore investigative reporter). The public places you into a mold and everyone has high expectations for reporters they come to know and love. The part that is the toughest (particularly if you don't work for a large metro daily) is not being able to shed that reporter outfit and those expectations when you leave the office. You can't leave the job at the office because you represent that newspaper everywhere you go. You can't go to the grocery store without someone stopping you to talk about a story they read, another story idea or whatever. I am "the newspaper" to them, not my own person with desires and faults. You just can't escape it.
I've been a reporter for 10 years and I think it led to some major suppression of my own being. I got to a point where I wanted someone to listen to ME and make the focus all about ME. I needed and wanted to break all those "nice girl" molds that had been created. I needed to scream and rant and rave and feel some major power. And I felt that with my first Domme experience, which I initially approached as something different to do. IT felt so fuckin good to go against the grain of society's expectations of me and not feel so suppressed. I remember lashing my sub's cock and balls with a belt on that first meeting and thinking "it doesn't fucking get any better than this." It's also nice knowing that someone is conforming to MY deadlines and i can escape those confining daily newspaper deadlines.
I don't really know how to explain it, but I do think that my profession has played a big part in the need for me to Domme.
P.S. I know my screen name indicates that I am a sub, but really I am more Domme. I do seek to be sub at times so I can get a taste of what I put My own sub through. I can't really understand and be a better, stricter Domme until I've walked some in his shoes. I suppose that's also a part of my profession that I can't shake (having to research everything for a better understanding).
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