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smileforme50 I read about 3 pages of the thread and here's my take on this. Your OP is about security which you equate with money/material things. Whether you were writing about your situation now, the future with your Mom or the future with this man, you expound upon the financial benefits to you with each choice. That was the common thread in your OP.
There is no real exterior clock here determining when you make a change. If this guy is for real, maybe you will sign your lease, and he will begin visiting you frequently to see if this becomes something more. If it does, then this generous man, who you have allowed to know you better, would likely pay off the remainder of your lease and help you rent it out to get you off the lease. There are ways.
So... the deadline is self-made.
Now, taking that dramatic intensity out of the mix, the focus becomes what other posters suggested, "What do YOU want?"
You say you almost lost your Mom years ago. You may need some relief from all of that before you can commit to a caretaker role with her.
There is no wrong choice unless you go against your own values. That creates unhappiness, resentment and regret. (shudders)
You didn't write that you would stay with your sister, get a job and an apartment there and get to college. It would seem you would be easier to visit if you were in Florida. This middle step allows you to be nearer, right?
But here's my deeper sense of your OP. You are aging. You are not financially sound. You believe you are under-educated and that a degree will change your employment outlook at age 55.
I think you are going through the proverbial mid-life crisis. Your last hurrah! It's a compelling feeling but take care not to attach it to any huge changes until you've ridden that tiger, as it were. Get to know yourself as you are now. Keep some of you, discard some of you and invent the new you. You have to do those things alone and if you try to skip this part of your development, there will be consequences and they could hurt and weaken you.
There are too many obstacles that you list that are easily fixed. For instance, car-pooling can be cheaper than busing. Sometimes, people barter for services. Other times, people offer rides free. Although, it is kind to look for ways to benefit each other.
College. Many employers offer tuition reimbursement. You said saving is a problem, so you likely qualify for a need-based, or gender based or age based, scholarship. I know a college student who was almost exactly your age who got a $750 grant (not to be paid back, just a gift), every semester she was in school part time, for the entire 4 years of college because she signed up for one geology class. The financial aid advisers told her to do that. It's free to ask. Student grants and student loans make it possible to live as a full-time student and not work at all. There are local women's and men's clubs in most cities who offer scholarships.
Need a free car? Sign up at charitycars.org
The point is... there are so many ways to change your life and to get the things you need. Most of them don't actually require money. They require the receipt of something of value, from you.
Sometimes, there's no getting around a thing... the only way forward is through it.
Best of luck to you.
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