SMgirl66
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ORIGINAL: HeartAndSoul31 I would like to apologize for my abrasive behavior about suicide. I do not communicate well. This is a very touchy subject with me due to personal experience. My words meant to be awake up call. If I did anyone any harm I am sorry. Hi heart and soul please don't feel bad suicide is such a hard topic and if you have had a personal experience with it that is tough. also the written word is so hard sometimes words on the page just dont communicate what we mean. i suffer from a mental illness and for me i have to battle suicidal thoughts all the time, i have had to learn that i am the only one that can control how i feel including the times where people are insensitive so if someone feels bad because of something you said unintentionally then they have to decide what they are going to do with those feelings. to others who don't understand why people suicide i say this, at that time of the suicide or the attempt your brain is not thinking right, the chemical imbalance has gotten so great its like you have been lowered down into a well and a cover has been placed over the opening so its completely dark, life has no hope and nobody can help. now of course this is not right as there is help out there, for me i have had amazing counselling so even in the times where i am almost going to do it my brain is able to dredge up one thing my counselling has given and i am then able to pick up the phone and ring lifeline or a similar suicide helpline. to those who are feeling this way right now please reach out pick up the phone even ring 911(if in the states) 111 (nz) 000 (australia) or whatever the emergency service number in your country, there is hope and its just an imbalance the people around you want you there as long as possible and it DOES get better. thoughts and prayers to all who like me suffer from this illness
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